Author: calm mama

12 weeks and all is almost well

Once again, I’ve been foiled by hope. I really need to stop expecting things to change on a schedule. Certainly it feels like an accomplishment to have gotten this far. 12 weeks, woo hoo! But as it always happens, as…

in memoriam

I’m sitting, well, gliding, in the glider chair, trying to help the boy take his morning nap. He clearly needs to nap. He’d gotten cranky. He was rubbing his eyes. First I bundled him up in his fleece swaddler, popped…

the remains of the day

As in, this is what was leftover from my amazing leftover-lamb stew. Mmmmmm. lunch tomorrow! And this is why I will probably never write a cookbook: Sweet ‘n’ Fruity Lamb Stew Chop and sweat one onion in olive oil and…

embarrassing, odd, and then amazing

The day started strong, after another nicely spaced 11 hours of mostly sleeping and some nurse/nappy activities interspersed between, the night before. The trouble started on the changing table around 7:30 a.m. I’m looking down at my boy’s boy parts,…

it’s a valentine’s sleep-miracle

It’s evening. Husband is out doing errands, due back at 7. He’d come home at 5:30, rocked the boy down to napping before leaving at 6, and the boy woke up again not 10 minutes later. Crying. I tried rocking…

life just being life

Not much to report. Been waiting for the boy’s head to get bigger. So I, too, can have one of those big-headed babies. I’m tired. Suddenly realized this tiredness is not going to go away for, like, years. The boy…

some people just don’t get it

I’ve crossed over to the other side. I used to be one of those people. Blissfully ignorant. Perhaps even a little disdainful. Of what it is to be a parent. Of what it takes to negotiate the world while also…