the state of the stork

I’m in one of those moods lately where I keep checking my blog to see if I’ve written anything.

You know?

What have I been up to?

A) Grieving, yes. Processing loss. Seems like I, and everyone else close to her, are feeling guilty for SOMETHING regarding our friend who recently passed. I’m starting to get over it, which is good.

Here are my takeaways from the conversations I’ve been having in my head, and with others:

1. People are complicated.

2. Life is busy.

3. It’s not a bad idea to try to be more loving and spend more time with people you care about “in real life,” rather than online or on the phone, but this goal can be complicated by #s 1 and 2.

4. If the internet is sucking up the time you should be spending working towards your goals and dreams, turn the computer off more often.

5. If the internet is giving you an opportunity to express yourself and connect with others in a way that feels satisfying, this may complicate #4.

B) OMG, Preschools!!!!!!

I have been increasingly obsessively researching preschools. What can we afford? What do we need? What is right for Jonah? Which fricking fracking feshlugeneh schools exclude him for an extra year because he is not going to be 3 on September 1, 2010. Play-based, Montessori, Co-op??? Mixed ages; classes divided by age.

And I thought decisions around breastfeeding, diapering, and sleep training were fraught.